he starts the actual book (the first blog was the prologue) by him saying its december 1986 and hes crouched naked under a christmas tree with needles stuck in his arms. this was the point where his addiction was extremely high and still escalating. he started this diary so he can remember what he did the day before and so if he dies he left everybody that knew him a nice little suicide note. the room in his house where he spends most of his time is his bedroom closet. he calls it his heroin den. most of his childhood he compares to the song search and destroy by iggy and the stooges because he always thought his childhood was a self destructed downward spiral which led him to the person he is now... an addict. when he started mixing drugs it took him to a really dark place but nikki seemed to like it more than anyother person doing it with him. when he gets high he darts straight to his closet and his hallucinations are so bad that he thinks people are after him sometimes its swat or midgets even mexicans.